Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

I hate this weather, today was gale, hail and strom ; all in one. This summer sucks. Fortunately i am going to Bulgaria with my friend for a week. Today Emma has surgery and i was really scared. When we came home she rolled up, she was soo weak, she couldn't catch the balance. I tried to look after her as best i can. I gave her a hot water bottle and a thick blanket to warm her body. And now she feels good so i am really happy, because i was worried about her. In my house the atmosphere is cheerful because my oldest brother will become father so i'll have a little niece or nephew. Haha, it's funny because i can't imagine my brother as a father, but i am sooo happy because of him. 

You know what ? I think i found my destiny xD I still meet my brother's neighbor and he is so hot. Ok, maybe he is not hot but he looks like my soulmate.  Wow, i'm so silly because i've never talked to him and i think he is my soulmate. My brain is not in the best condition today, definitely. 

picturesmakemehappy

The weather is awful all the time, it makes me a little bit sad. My dad came back from Bulgaria and gave me a little jewel case which is handmade and i really like stuff like that. Tomorrow I have an internal driving exam so i am really stressed because i know that i'll fail. I'm the worst driver ever xD

I can't sleep lately so i watch a lot of movies in the night. One of them it was 'One day' which is absolutely lovely, but sad. 

pics from tumblr

Let's not fight, I'm tired, can't we just sleep tonight?

I love this collar, yesterday i was shopping with my mum and she bought me this lovely thing and 2 dresses and shoes. I'm happy with these clothes. I'm going to meet my friend today. The weather is not  good but it doesn't metter. 

I decided to change my life this summer. I read a lot blogs written by people who are happy and can enjoy the small things and i also read about healthy lifestyle. I'm not this kind of person who can't enjoy little things but i just try to be better person and i hope it will work. 

My friend sent me this video some time ago and i think i like it.

The moonlight shining off your tears

' Hushabye baby, your almost dead

You have no pulse and your pillow is red

Your family hates you 

Your friends let you bleed

Sleep tight with a knife 

Cause that’s all you need '

I really love sad whiteandblack pictures, they tell stories and they impact on our emotions. I'm not sad  recently, but i was sad in my life very often. I follow some whiteandblack blogs on tumblr and i've just understood that people are sad (everyone knows this) but some people are depressed and they think about suicide a lot. Sometimes, when people have problems, which eat them from the inside they need some space to spit out the bad memories and just place where they can remove their mask with the fake smile. And every single person who doesn't understand people with depression, who send them messages like this : ' go kill yourself, you're an attention seeker' makes me angry and sad. I read about Olivia Penpraze who comitted suicide because of people like that. Her story is so sad, i didn't know her, but  she seems like a good person. I don't know why i am writing about this but her story touch me and i just wanna ask you to think before you'll bully someone.