Ouch I have lost myself again

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part there's no-one else to blame

Wow, i'm so sad lately. It is this kind of sorrow which turns into the huge pain. My face looks awful cause of my new medicine, my heart is broken, I do everything wrong and the weather is horrible. I am listening to the same song all day and I think it's beautiful song. 'Breathe me' is one of my best song and now it reflects my feelings. Today and tomorrow are days free from school so on Friday  I'm going to funfair with my friend so maybe my mood will be better. I don't know why but i love amusement parks, they're make me always happy. Now I'll take a bath and then i'll spend time with my brother and his girlfriend cause  they wanna visit us.